seevik said:
nice pictures, and looks like it was fun. on the side note, you seem like a little rude, cocky kid, reading all your posts in threads
First of all, I'm not a kid, I'm probably older than you, but you are very right. I am a very cocky person especially when it comes to my Toyotas, but dont get me wrong, I will always help out a fellow offroader. Im not just cocky but I am very arrogant, I have way to much pride and I am quite the show-off.
So on that note, here's a personal background story.
My whole life I have grown up around 4X4's and things that go fast. I raced ATV's the better part of my life and I have always had some kind of offroading vehicle. As I mentioned earlier, I have a cousin named Corey who shared all the same passions and pretty much did everything that I did. My first car (believe it or not) was a 96 Jeep Cherokee. His first car was a Jeep Wrangler. When I was 7 years old my parents got me a piece of crap 1987 Yamaha Warrior ATV. When Corey was 7 years old (1 year later) my aunt and uncle bought him a brand new Yamaha Blaster. So as you can see already, everything I do, my cousin follows in my foot steps, which in most cases is a cool thing. But with Corey and I, Corey was always better. We raced 11 races together over 2 seasons in ATV racing and Corey always placed ahead of me. Which to most people is not a problem, but Corey loved to rub it in my face. Even to this day, if you want to meet the most arrogant, cocky, prideful douche bag you've ever met, I'll introduce you some time. When it really started to bother me was when were 9 and 8 years old and we both got drum sets for christmas. Every few months or so we would see each other and of course Corey would whoop my ass at the drums. Then over a good 7 year span, I really took an interest in the drums and what drove me was just being better than Corey. At 18 years old on Christmas eve, we were at my house for dinner and I had my drum set, set up. At this time I hadnt seen Corey in about 2 years cause his family moved to Wyoming. Anyways, Corey sits down at my drum set and starts playing his heart out, intensionally just to show off to me, but my eyes lit up and the biggest grin grew across my face because I was so much better than him. I immediately kicked him off and started play, meanwhile turning to him while I was playing and started making fun of him. He got this pissed off look in his face and took off. I felt great, and from then on I made it a point to do everything better than him and to throw it in his face just so I could see that light die in his eyes.
Last year, I came home from living in California for a few months and I get a call from my parents almost the second I got of the plane. They told me that I needed to come straight to their house. I show up and my parents sit me down and tell me that 2 week prior, they attended Coreys wedding. I was unaware that Corey even had a girlfriend. They tell me that when they got the invitation there was a special note attached to theirs that said to call my aunt and uncle as soon as they got the invite. So my parents call and my aunt tells them to make sure that I don't come and that Corey had specifcally told my aunt not to invite me because he thought I would ruin his wedding day. My heart instantly sunk and I felt the worst feeling I think Ive ever felt before. Not only did I miss my cousins wedding but I was perposefully not invited. Now I was raised in a Christian family but I never really took it seriously until about a little less than a year ago and I have specifically targeted my cockyness, pridefulness and arrogance and have been working on this for quite a long time. After that day I felt so terrible that I went for a drive up into the mountains to think about what I have done. 6 months ago I finally built up the courage to go see my cousin for the first time in 3 years and appologize. We sat in his living room for 4 hours talking about our lives and how this all happened, and I came to the conclusion that I suck. I am still working on my attitude and lately I've gotten worse but it's things like this that I am actually greatful for cause it makes me realize what Im doing.
For all of you who dont know, I am a recording artist for Warner Bros. I basicly write the precussion and most of the time play the drims for solo artists. As part of my job I have to spend hours upon days upon weeks in the recording studio and I have a lot of downtime that consists of me sitting in the studio waiting for the sound engineer to set everything up for me to start recording again. I used to just sit around and do nothing then one day I stumbled upon this website and have been hooked ever since. So to put it simply you all are pretty much the only people I have to talk to pretty much all day every day, so as weird as it sounds I really do care what you all think of me cause you're the only people I have to talk. I cant talk to the sound engineer cause he has to use his ears to listen to my drums not my mouth and my producers an ass and all he ever wants to talk about is music, which after 6 years of going to school for it and doing it every single day as a career, there really isnt anything more that I want to hear about it. So as to my earlier statement about the rednecks, my cousin is a hardcore redneck so when I see them I automaticly go into show-off mode which I need to learn not to, and over the years of having to compete with my cousin for bragging rights, I tend to do it to everyone all the time, which I also need to learn not to. Just know that first of all every thing I say or do on this website is with the best intensions in mind, I just end up sounding like a jerk most of the time. So after all that I want to appologize to everyone and also thank you all for letting me know that Im a douche cause it helps me keep myself in check. oh and on a side note, as to some of my earlier posts, I've just gotten a little irritated lately over how much people have been wanting to start arguments with me, I know its not right but thats just something that gets me steamed for some reason but again I appologize and I will also work on that too.